Wednesday, August 30, 2006

walking away



That is one year of my life packed in one small box!!

I can't believe I wasted an entire year of life rotting in that place. I believe it was one of the least challenging phases of my life. No I guess that would make it one of the most challenging phases of my life. It challenged my tolerance, it challenged my sanity, it challenged my trust in myself. I guess in some ways I rose up to the occasion, and in other I miserably failed.

Enshallah, let's just hope that I am about to begin something more fulfilling.

When I looked at the box after I was done clearing away my stuff, this cheesy urdu shayeri got stuck in my head. It was one of those antidepressant induced moments, where a word or a phase would pass through my head and I begin repeating it over and over. I have no control over this and it just goes on and on until my head really hurts and my tongue becomes heavy and dry.


"Insaan ki khawahish ki koi intihaa nahi,Do gaz zameen chahiye, do gaz kafan ke baad"

Tuesday, August 15, 2006


I am sure I am not supposed to be scanning official letters that I get at work but I could not help myself! For some reason this subject cracked me up! Emtane3 warba7! Emtane3 3an what exactly?! LOL
I dont know what a regular not-a-kid person would think!
But this it seems is a campaign to help people quit smoking!
I dont know why but I always thought that the word mostly used with smoking was Eqla3 (9ee'3at Amr) or Eqlaa3 ( Esem)

Sunday, August 13, 2006

Sunshine On My Window

On my way to work today I saw: mini rainbows over road-side sprinklers, one extraordinary black Ferrari, two black sheeps and a white one!

Saturday, August 12, 2006

Hanan of Arabia

My 3 years old niece was spending the night with me.
Tucked in her bed, and right before she slept, she looked up at the ceiling and asked me:
Baby: 7anan, Allah foug?
Me: yes, he is everywhere. (Thinking: where did that come from?!)
Baby: Allah boy?
Me: La he is not
Baby: Allah maye7ebny?
Me: (In utter surprise) La Allah ye7ebbech! Allah ye7ebna kelna!
And she dozed off.

My last words kept on echoing in my head and made me think of my past few days.
It was the answer to all my unasked questions.

I got my sign.

Monday, August 07, 2006

On my birthday

7th August, 1992
A few of my cousins and my siblings were all sitting in grandma's room passing just another Summer afternoon. My aunts had just returned from the bank and were going through the events of the day. After counting all the money and checking her gold, my eldest aunt handed me a fresh from the bank bundle of notes and asked me to give it to my mom. It could have been my first time holding such a large sum of money. With a huge sense of responsibility and an air of superiority I went out of my grandma's room intending to go straight to ours. My brother who is two years older than me followed me out of the room and asked me to slow down.
We were in the hallway just outside of my grandmother's room, when he told me that the money I was holding was actually my birthday gift! " It is a large amount and that's why she didnt give it to you" I looked at him in disbelieve. " You can ask her if you want, go ahead, you know she is in there". He knew that I spent the whole day thinking how insignificant my birthday is to everyone in that house. He knew that I always thought someone will surprise me on my birthday, I always wanted that. I went back inside that room and asked my aunt in hesitation " Is this my birthday gift?" I dont remember who said what, but I still remember the laughter that filled the room, and the stabbing pain in my heart when my brother was rolling on the floor.

Saturday, August 05, 2006

Let go of me

I talked to my manager before he left on his annual leave that I will be submitting my resignation the following week. In utmost happiness he accepted it with no words of remorse whatsoever.

Upon completing exactly one year at the company and not a day more, I submitted my resignation with no second thoughts.
As neither my boss nor his manager, nor the General manager are available my resignation could not be accepted!

Now, the person in charge did contact my manager, but he did not receive any reply yet. Surprise surprise! My boss was not helpful when I was a full time employee and he had my loyalty, would he be helpful now that I am leaving?!

Funny how selfish some people can be, when I told him about my decision, my manager started bragging about an offer he got from somewhere else. " It's a very good offer, better than my current package. I wanted to work there, the housing allowance was less, and I didnt want to move to Dubai." Dude! How can it be a better offer when you are getting less allowance?!

Tuesday, August 01, 2006

Rapture tastes so sweet!

With all the negativity in the air, I decided to count my blessings.

Some of the things that I am currently smiling about: (In a random order)
  • Sleeping in this morning.
  • Going late for work. I'm entitled to being late. At least 5 days per month.
  • Submitting my resignation. Euphoric!!
  • Being offered to be on a super mini TV clip (Wa6any ana... Ana Wa6any)
  • Receiving the Ultimate customer service from Amazon. They delivered the books I ordered within just a week!! I heart Amazon!
  • Having my friend over at work
  • My strawberry-pineapple juice
  • My new job!
  • The movie I am about to see in 45 minutes!



" It is never too late to have a happy childhood!" - Can't remember who said this hillarious quote!